| Thursday, April 10, 2008 |
| Broken |
In two weeks, I'll be making my return to NewSpring student ministry. It's been four months and God has taught me so much during my time away. I needed it. At some point, I had forgotten to take the time to rest, thinking that if I did I'd be failing my small group or the other leaders. God showed me that wasn't so. By remaining when I knew I needed the time away to rest, I wasn't as good of a leader as I once was. That was painful for me because at the time I didn't know what my problem was. I was too busy to realize that my problem was the fact that I was so busy!
But now I feel energized and now my pain comes from being away from my small group girls. I kept in touch with them while I was away, but it wasn't enough. I have to be there with them, lead them in small group and I can't wait to make my return. I'm a college student and next semester I'll be taking 19 hours. Pray for me! But whether I'm a college student, or a parent, or a successful businesswoman, I have to take the time to rest.
The time away has allowed me to grow closer to God and I'm so grateful for that. He's bringing the sins I've struggled with for years to the surface. Even now, He's breaking me and it's the most wonderfully painful experience on earth. I'm reminded of a line in "Let It All Out" by Relient K where it says, "And You said, 'I know that this will hurt, but if I don't break your heart then things will just get worse. If the burden seems to much to bear, remember the end will justify the pain it took to get us there.'" |
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